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I feel... flat. And unhappy. I just came out of probably the most spiritual experience of my life (don't get me wrong, I'm happy about that), but now I'm going back into the real world... and I feel flat and unhappy.
Friend asked if Taylor 'n I were together, and the answer is no. Why? Because he never asked. And I've got a feeling he won't. Though, it's probably a good idea seeing as I'm leaving in December. It would still be nice though. Most of the time I'm okay with spending my weekend nights alone, but every once in a while I'd like to get out. I hate tagging along after Ryan, Jeff, Pasha and Lara though. I /feel/ like a third wheel (not that they are paired up, but they are such good friends...) and I dislike that feeling greatly. It is awkward. And I do not like awkward.
I could be more aggressive about this, I know. But I'm /tired/ of being aggressive in a relationship. *sighs*
I'm going to bed. Hopefully everything will look better tomorrow. Or maybe just when my headache goes away.
Friend asked if Taylor 'n I were together, and the answer is no. Why? Because he never asked. And I've got a feeling he won't. Though, it's probably a good idea seeing as I'm leaving in December. It would still be nice though. Most of the time I'm okay with spending my weekend nights alone, but every once in a while I'd like to get out. I hate tagging along after Ryan, Jeff, Pasha and Lara though. I /feel/ like a third wheel (not that they are paired up, but they are such good friends...) and I dislike that feeling greatly. It is awkward. And I do not like awkward.
I could be more aggressive about this, I know. But I'm /tired/ of being aggressive in a relationship. *sighs*
I'm going to bed. Hopefully everything will look better tomorrow. Or maybe just when my headache goes away.
