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Even though I haven't been having as many panic attacks lately, I had another one today.:(

It was right after TAylor told me that he hadn't yet finished his radio wrap to apply for a job that quite possibly has fallen into his lab. The job in question would allow us to stay in Phoenix after his graduation in December.

He was suppose to have it in a week ago.

I'm noticing a trend in my panic attacks. Namely, any time I have a set of assumptions (in this case, that Taylor would actually do what he was suppose to) or a hope I didn't realize I had fostered (that we'd get to stay in Phoenix.)

It's really distressing. I finally told Taylor what sent me over the edge... and now he's mad at me. I can't win. :( :( :'(

At least I managed to stop crying.

In good news:

The Provo Tabernacle that burned down last year is being rebuilt!!! Not only that, but it's being rebuilt into a TEMPLE. The collective gasp in the Conference Center when President Monson announced that was amazing. I started happy-crying right there.
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Taylor and I have been thinking that if we get to stay here in Phoenix (aka, he gets a real job here) then we could buy a house. So I talked to my father and I was really happy when he mentioned I might want to take my uncle Bryon along if we seriously start looking. Bryon works in construction here in the valley so he'd have a good view of what is right/wrong with a place so that we don't buy a hundred grand of trouble. If it does happen I'll still invite Dad down, but I'm glad I could say it was Dad's idea and spare him any hurt feelings if he can't come down if it does happen. I like dreaming of owning a house....

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